Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Well, Hello Again

Well, Hello Again. It's me, Melissa, your good ole friend from You Were Born in Our Hearts. Please forgive me for the abrupt goodbye. Things were getting a tad too personal over here in blog land. We needed to take a break after bringing our little one home from China to decide what needed to be shared and what needed to remain private. It was HARD. If you know me, or were one of my faithful readers that got to know our story, you know I'm pretty much an open book. I feel like it's so important to share honestly about our struggles as an adoptive family. I was just struggling to make sure that I was sharing solely from my perspective and not what I perceived my children's perspective to be because I was ANGRY that it was that hard...angry at us for us for thinking we could do it again, angry at our child for not sleeping when he was traumatized (not my best self right there) and angry at God for calling us to it and disrupting the calm we had finally found a year and a half in with our oldest. I always wanted to be honoring to our children and their stories and I was letting my feelings get in the way of me doing that so I knew it was time to walk away for a while. It was definitely the right decision. I mean, I was even embarrassed by the name I chose for my blog, "You Were Born In Our Hearts." Ummm no. But, when you know better, you do better and let's face it, born in our hearts they were not. Both of my boys were born in their beautiful China Mamas bellies. That is the truth of our children's stories and we want there to be no confusion there. The sentiment behind the blog title was so well meaning and it's even somewhat sweet before you witness the trauma your child endures to become yours. When you sit and think about the gut wrenching decision those women had to make. You just won't ever hear the words "born in our hearts" ever come out of my mouth again.

But enough about the old blog. We are starting something brand new! Through the hard, we found HOPE. God used so many to speak to us about ways we could help our son. We discovered Young Living Essential Oils and our lives were changed forever. With a tiny little diffuser and two tiny bottles of oil, we had hope that things would get better. They have gotten more than better. You can read about why we chose to try our oils here and about trauma and the brain and how oils calm here. If you want to learn about our family and how we came to become Mama & Baba you can read about that here.

So, WELCOME! I'm so happy to be back sharing our journey with you all and I'm so happy you are here! Go grab a cup of coffee or maybe a glass of wine and stay awhile.

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